to be honest, I genuinely think you have posted 2 beautiful jams. Your technique is unsurpassed but what you have demonstrated with your last two jams is a sublime feel and approach to melody. IMO it shows the best of your playing. I know what you are capable of with your technique but these are intrinsically honest performances and more creative than anything I have heard from you. The beauty of these jams is the fact the (scary) technique takes second place to the melody.
I too have a problem with my fretting hand (3rd/4th finger numb and unresponsive) - not nice and the doctor is not as much help as yours. But we carry on the best we can.
Your previous posts have been stunning technique wise but these latest have been honest and pure.
Fuck the drink mate, we all need a crutch sometimes. I do and a million others too, given your problems (sorry about the marriage - that really affected me when I read that) but you are a superbly talented player amd everybody here knows it. Escapism is pretty cool until it becomes your master.
Do what you do best, play guitar and make beautiful music. If you go for the op then cool, but never stop playing - you are to creative/good to stop.